Assalammualaikum!
Warmest Greeting!

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Assalammualaikum!

Salam Bahagia!

Setiap hari yang berlalu dan di setiap hela nafasku, pasti ada sahaja kejadian-kejadian yang berlaku. Sama ada kita menyadarinya ataupun tidak. Aku cuba untuk menceritakan setiap apa yang berlaku seharian di dalam hidupku di dalam bentuk perkataan dan selepas itu akan aku tumpahkannya di dalam blog kesayanganku ini. Tetapi di sebabkan sibuk dengan pekerjaan dan juga tidak mempunyai masa yang banyak, hasrat itu aku pendamkan sahaja.

Diam tak diam hari ini genap 3 bulan aku bekerja di Condo. Sesuatu yang tidak pernah aku jangkakan selama ini. Dalam masa 3 bulan itu, banyak perkara yang telah aku lalui. Sama ada perkara yang manis ataupun yang pahit. Seperti biasa yang manis akan aku simpan di dalam lubuk hatiku sebagai sebuah kenangan yang aku tahu sudah semestinya ia tidak akan berulang lagi. Untuk yang pahit pula, aku sudah lontarkan ia sejauh mungkin. Tidak perlu di tanya apa sebabnya aku berbuat demikian biarlah ia berlalu pergi dengan tanpa alasan.

Berada di dalam pekerjaan seperti aku yang memerlukan aku selalu berhadapan dengan ramai orang, itu memerlukan aku harus selalu tersenyum walaupun ada masa dan ketikanya, hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu gelora di hati aku. Kadang-kadang aku terfikir, mungkin ini agaknya yang di namakan ‘Dunia Pesta Lakonan.’ Kita semua adalah para pelakon yang perlu memainkan bermacam-macam watak yang diberikan. Cuba bezanya skrip yang keluar dari mulut kita adalah skrip spontan.

Kalau dahulu aku selalu memikirkan bagaimana akhirnya sesuatu perkara yang aku lakukan itu. Tetapi sekarang, aku lebih senang mengikut sahaja alunan dan rentak kehidupanku yang telah diberikan Allah. Bukan itu bermakna aku sudah malas untuk berfikir tetapi sering kali apa yang aku inginkan ianya tidak terjadi. Walaupun aku cuba sedaya mungkin untuk menjadikan ianya sesuatu reality tetapi kuasa Allah tidak ada sesiapa dapat menghalangnya. Aku rasa jalan yang aku pilih ini lebih baik sebab aku tidak mahu berterusan hidup dalam kesedihan yang tidak ada penghujungnya.

Assalammualaikum!

Salam Bahagia!

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Assalammualaikum!

Salam Bahagia!

Facebook. Ada orang yang mengatakan Faceebook ini tempat orang kpo, orang yang suka hendak tahu tentang kehidupan orang lain. Ada juga yang mengatakan Facebook ini tempat untuk kita mendekatkan silaturahim. Tempat untuk bertemu kembali dengan kawan-kawan lama kita yang kita sudah lost contact. Itu semua terpulang pada individu itu sendiri untuk mentafsirkan apakah makna 'Facebook' bagi mereka.

Bagi saya Facebook selain dapat bertemu semula dengan kawan-kawan yang saya sudah lost contact, ia juga dapat mengimbas kembali kenangan saya bersama dengan orang itu. Terutama sekali, kawan-kawan yang sama sekolah dengan saya dahulu. Bila ingat zaman-zaman sekolah dahulu tiba-tiba rasa rindu pula dengan zaman itu. Yalah, sekarang masing-masing sudah bekerja ataupun ada yang sudah berkahwin dan mungkin juga sudah ada anak.

Begitu cepat masa berlalu. Kadang-kadang tanpa kita sedari, kita sudah semakin dewasa dan kita perlu rancang masa depan kita. Hidup ini, memang sementara tetapi ada banyak dugaan dan liku-liku kehidupan yang perlu kita hadapinya.

Assalammualaikum!
Warmest Greeting!
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim!

Assalammualaikum!
Warmest Greeting!

I have been trying my best not to hate you and try to accept you as who you are. But the more I tried, the more hated I am towards you. No one needs to tell me that you are part of the family and no matter what it is; it is still my duty to obey and respect you. But how can that be done by me if just by hearing your name I already wanna shut my ears because I can’t stand the hated feeling I have. I know I should not have this feeling but I can’t help it because you are the one making yourself been hated by people. I am saying this base on the fact and not something that I created out from my mind.

I have known you for 24 years. Since that period of time, I have never even once hearing the good things you said about people. Not to mention people, just your own flesh and blood, your children. You always curse them; despise them as though they are good for nothing. Sometimes I felt as though maybe deep inside your heart, you feel regret because you have given birth to them into this world. Whenever I hear you curse your children, how hurt I am! Not because my mum was curse by you but because I really can’t believed you were so mean as to curse them. I kept asking myself, ‘what is wrong with your children and why must you hate them so much?’

Frankly speaking, you are so mean and so fierce with your children and yet with other people what a laugh you made to yourself. Because with other people my goodness, your are like a frighten mouse! Izzit that a laugh my dearest? People like you, why should I waste my time or my life to respect and obey you.

If you think your children are useless and good for nothing, ask yourself back. You are the one who brought them up and who fault is this if in the end they grew up to become like this? When my mum and my aunt was a kid, you kept on scaring them with all kinds of story that was totally unrealistic. Until my mum totally was fooled by you and she believed your unrealistic story. In the end when my mum has really become scared, what do you do? You just put on a sarcastic smile. Scaring them just because you don’t want them to become naughty so that it was easier for you to take care of them. See, how evil you are!

I have enough of taking about this and I don’t wanna talk about this anymore.

Assalammualaikum!
Warmest Greeting!

Dear Someone,

“Doesn’t mean you are older than me you can disrespect me!”

I have been asking myself, how much longer can I be patient with you and tolerate you sarcastic words towards me? I am not an angle or either am I a non-living thing who doesn’t have any feeling. I am just a normal human being like you and like everyone else. I have sense of feeling! I know you and everyone else, always keep mistaken me as a secondary school student base on my look and I know base on people’s first reaction, they will never guess my age as 24 years old. Because of that most importantly YOU, seem forget that I am already an Adult and not a kid whom you can just ignore my feeling.

Since I am a kid, I always hear you said this to my mum, “Although you are a widow but you are rich.” At that time upon hearing that I took no notice of it. Mainly because at that time besides I am still a kid plus I don’t know about my mum’s financial or neither do I know how hard it was to earn money. What I just know, everyday I will have my pocket money given by my mum without failed. But now since I already working and earning my hard earn money, I realized it was not easy to earn even $0.10. Plus there were ups and downs in my mum and mine financial. So when you said, my mum is a rich person in my heart I wanna laugh loudly. It was because how wrong you are! How can you simply judge our financial that way because in the first point, my mum is a widow and I don’t have a dad and it was not as if we have someone to support us. All the money that we have is mainly due to our hard earning. Beside that the struggling that we have to face in order to maintain our financial, do you know it? No you don’t!

Beside all that I have been trying to forget about what you said, “You dislike me because to you I am an egoistic person; have a loud voice and totally a different person when I am in the cyber world.” But sadly, I can’t forget it no matter how hard I tried! You know what, all this while since I already started working I tried to stop myself from keeping on becoming a coward person. I wanna become someone else! I wanna become a person who can freely voice out what is inside their heart without have to feel scared what others might think of me. I wanna become that! I am totally sick and tired of just keeping in everything that I wanna voice out and in the end I am the one who suffered. I have enough living with the family like ours which most of the time we can’t freely voice out especially if we are younger. Just because of the seek we don’t want people to label as “disrespect.”

Let me tell you frankly, when I am with our family members, I pretend to be the kind of person who only told to listen and not to say a word when I am not suppose too. But deep inside my heart only Allah knows how I wish I can voice out too. Don’t I have enough of that?! If in the real world it seems hard to voice out I don’t think it was wrong to voice it out at the cyber world. It was better this way rather than I become like your youngest son. Never get to voice out what was inside his heart and when suddenly he open his mouth to speak up, all his words were all the dissatisfy that all this while he have in his life. I am saying this base on the fact and not some make up story that I created.

I heard him said all these:

“Why do people wanna kept looking at us? For what? To see our underwear?”
“You don’t talk about life. It was better you settle about your own death first before you wanna talk about life”.
“I never asked you to change your sit there; I was just giving my opinion!”

I don’t wanna say anymore. Mostly people are all the same. They can find other people’s fault but when it comes to their own fault they never wanna realize it or admit it.